Sunday, May 30, 2004

First Entry

Hi Wyatt-

Right now you're six months old. I've been trying to figure out a way to capture my thoughts and experiences since you were born. I don't do very well with the notebooks. But I'm pretty much always online and I'm hoping this proves to be the answer. I want you to know how much you mean to me and how often I think of you. I imagine that it will often become fuzzy as I'll be talking to myself as much as you, or so it will seem. It may be years before you see or understand this. I just know that I want you to know me a little bit. And technology is pretty cool these days - I imagine by the time you are old enough to read this you'll have even cooler tools at your disposal.

I have a lot of questions about this - it's my first blog (up until now I haven't been able to imagine why I'd use one). I don't know who I'm going to give access or if I'll even last on this server. If I'm going to do this I want to make sure that it's around for you to see it. Backups and such will be important.

I'll stop now as it's late. Right now you are sleeping away in the next room in our little blue house. You don't really have any understanding of how big or complicated the world can get. When you do, maybe this will help you. At least that's my hope.

One last thing - I'm not signing this "dad" or "your father" or anything like that. I am, but I'm sure by now you know that. Instead, here, I think I'll just stay me. It may be weird to read it, or it may not, depending on how our relationship has worked out. But I'll be telling you a lot of things and many of them may be things I can't tell you as dad. So I'll tell you as myself. But I'll always love you very much, no matter who I am. Or who you are. I really hope this works, that I can keep it going, and that it helps you. We'll see.

Lance